Happily Tired

I feel like I have pregnancy brain already... I can't even remember what I did this morning. I think I worked on some annoying bills and cleaned up. I also made my first appointment for the 30th yay =). Kai and I had a nice nap in the afternoon... I think we woke up around 2:30 or 3. We went to Dollar Tree to buy some pregnancy tests just incase i felt concerned but they were out of them so we just bought a giant slimey centipede instead. I think I'll just wait for my blood test which i think will be in a week or 2 and see what my levels are. I'm feeling good today... nice and pregnant =). I still feel like it's a girl. I went grocery shopping and used the little hand scanny thing that you carry around the store. I kept just putting things in the bag and it turns out I bought cookies, crumb cake, M&Ms, pepermint candies, and apples. At least the apples are healthy lol. I'm really into cookies and pastas these days. I can't believe how fast that happened... I feel like it took longer last time. With Kai i ate chicken for breakfast, lunch, and dinner and like a pound of cheese every 3 days hahaha gross. After the grocery store we went to the park and then I came home and cooked meatloaf, veggies and roasted potatoes. I'm gonna try to stay mostly healthy but we'll see =P. Jordan's been really good since he got home helping out with dishes and Kai so I can have a rest. Sounds like Kai is making trouble in the bath though so I better be off =).

Happy, Sad, And A Trip To The Zoo

Today has been a day of crazy mixed emotions. I'm so happy that I'm pregnant, but I also feel sad that there are so many people who want it just as badly as me, and it's not fair that sometimes it's difficult. I feel selfish asking God to watch over me and my baby when there are so many who need those prayers more than me. All the babies born into disease and starvation, and those that are lost too early... sometimes I wonder how things like that are even possible. Coping with loss and difficult times is so hard and not being able to help or say anything to fix it is so frustrating. I know without sadness we would never feel joy, but that doesn't make it any easier. Tonight I am praying for everyone who has had to suffer through the loss of a child, no matter what the age, hoping that God gives them strength.

In other news, we made our first trip to the National Zoological Park. It was actually really nice! We saw tons of animals including pandas, gorillas, lions, tigers, wallabys, elephants, and a komodo dragon. Most were pretty close up, which was cool (yes the apes in this picture are walking right over my head). There were a lot of people so we had to park a few blocks away since the lots were full, but the walk wasn't too bad and it was definitely worth it. We are definitely looking forward to going back again. There were a bunch of things we didn't even get to see and we were there for at least a few hours. Kai was up and down today. He enjoyed seeing some of the animals, but didn't really get a proper nap today and so was extra fussy when it came to listening to mommy. Next time I think we will try to get there really early. I think Kai would be in a better mood and I think the animals might wander around more if there was less of a crowd. Tomorrow I will call my ob to make my 1st appointment.

P is for ...

PREGNANT!! woowoo!! I am sooo excited! I thank God every day for having such a wonderful family, and to be blessed with another child is just so amazing. I felt so lucky when I found out I was pregnant with Kai and I feel exactly the same right now. =) Thanks Lisa for "making me" test early lol. It's such a relief to know! I am now really enjoying all my cramps and sore boobs. As of now I'm predicting a girl... I feel like I could just eat cookies all day and I'd be the happiest person ever LOL. So besides finding out about being impregnated, today was also awesome because it was like 70 degrees out. This morning we went to Bob Evans to celebrate (actually mostly because I was starving and ran out of my unhealthy breakfast foods) and then we spent most of the rest of the morning driving around in search of this amazing playground we found back when Jordan was interviewing at Hopkins. After 2 or 3 failed attempts, I finally took over the Garmin and was able to find the correct one, along with Jordan's great memory that there was a Target nearby. We will definitely be going back there. Tomorrow we are going to head down to the DC zoo. The weather is supposed to be great again and I'm really looking forward to being outside =). I think Kai is gonna love it! All I have to say is YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!

The Waiting Game

I hate this game... very frustrating to not know. I'm not sure what women used to do before the days of 20 mIU/ml HCG tests. With Kai I had a lot of restraint somehow and didn't test until 18 dpo.. maybe cause we were poor then, or maybe cause I didn't know 90 cent internet pregnancy tests existed. I'm only 10 dpo and have already take 2.... I think it's a + (!!) but can't tell for sure yet. I'm waiting to tell my fam until I get a real line. I took this pic quite a bit after the recommended reaction time. Anyway, I guess the days go pretty fast anyway. This morning I folded a million loads of laundry and played Bembo's Zoo with Kai (http://www.bemboszoo.com/ thanks to uncle tre). Kai is getting pretty good withthe mouse. He can get it over the letter he wants to click and can click on it about 1/2 the time... pretty cool. I don't think I used a mouse until I was in 1st grade computers class. He's getting really big now and can do so much. He's really excited about having a new baby (says he wants a sister) and he also likes the name that's on the top of our list right now. Kai had a good nap and I actually woke up before him for once. He was so cute sleeping on the bed with kitty... I think i could watch him all day. It reminds me of when he was a baby and jordan and I would smell his breath when he slept with his mouth open. It smelled so good like vanilla... I don't think i'll ever forget that smell. This afternoon we walked to a park with our neighbor which was fun. We hadn't been to that park yet. It was nice, except wooden playgrounds make me a little nervous since I remember getting tons of splinters as a kid. It was also more remote than the one we usually go to, which is right across from an elementary school. This evening we are being lazy... or I am anyway. I had a pretty bad headache a little while ago (hopefully cause I'm the big P?) so I ate left overs, made Kai a frozen pizza, and turned on the tv haha. Daddy is working late tonight, but the weather is supposed to be beautiful this weekend, so I'm really looking forward to some quality family time =). As my blog title says, my fam is everything to me and it's been hard for me and kai having to be away from daddy a bunch. We're thinking of moving closer to his work at some point so he can spend his hour commute with us instead =). Time to stop being lazy and play now!

Catching Up

We had a fun couple days with my parents here. My mom hung out with me and Kai on Tues and Wed. Kai is looking really huge in this picture with her. We met some new relatives on Thus. They came over for lunch and were really nice. I think they are probably 5-10 yrs older than my parents. I'm getting more into cooking and find myself wishing I knew how to make more things... I always fall back on chicken cutlets and some sort of pasta because I know they will come out good. The heart healthy bisquick mix is also one of my fav things... biscuits take about 2 min to mix up. Anyway, on Friday, my parents and I went to Centennial Park and played on the playground and wandered around a little.

Then we went out to eat at Ruby Tuesday which was nice and in the evening we went to the Science Museum. The free imax this week was the Bayou, which was about hurricane Katrina, and raising awareness about the wetlands or whatever they are called that are disappearing around New Orleans. I liked it a lot, and Kai did fine even though it was a more serious topic. The story followed a young girl who is a pro fiddle player so there was a bunch of music. We went to breakfast at Bob Evans on Sat before my parents left... I love that place... breakfast all day and the food is always yummy. Anyway, it was great to have them visit. Kai always has a blast with them and Daisy of course. It was nice to have some calm time over the weekend though cause it's always busy and crazy when my fam visits. We went to splash down (an indoor water park) which was nice cause there's was a very shallow baby pool which Kai could pretty much manage on his own. I was expecting more from an indoor water park. There were only 2 tube slides and then a rope swing and some lap pools. I guess it's fun if you are bored in the winter but I wouldn't exactly call that a "water park." More like a swim center plus 2 water slides. We'll probably go back though... jordan really enjoyed the slides. I decided not to go on them just incase i'm pregnant. If I'm not though I might have to try it next week =). On Monday it snowed a bunch... maybe 5 inches?? We went outside and played with the neighbors which was fun. Kai kept belly flopping into the snow. The 3 boys were really cute. Hopefully I'll get to hang out more with them this summer. I've been hibernating a lot this winter and I know they go out the the gym and to playgroups a bunch. This week Kai and I went to a 3 year old playgroup. I've been having a really hard time deciding what to do with him. When we go to groups with younger kids (2 and under) he ends up just playing by himself cause he really doesn't connect with the other kids, and he likes playing with more complicated toys or being really crative with setting up trains or characters. We've played with a few kids who are older (3 yr range) and he has played really well with them, so that's why I wanted to try the 3 year group. Some of the time, I think it was good for him, like when he was playing this alphabet laptop game with one of the boys, but at other times he really just acts like a 2 year old, since he is one (not respecting personal space, pushingkids out of the way, tantrums). Most of his "2 year oldness" seems to come out when he's playing with trains. Unfortunately the house we were at had a train table. He just gets so obsessed with them that he can't play with anything else or interact with the other kids. I think this group would be good for him though and the moms were really nice. Hopefully in the spring we will be going outside a lot and haveing the meetups outside too and some of this train craziness will subside. He always has a HUGE tantrum when we have to leave someone else's train table, which I've found dificult to deal with. I really want him to understand what I'm saying to him, but he obviously is only 2. I suppose this will get better over time. Yesterday we visited Lisa, which was a lot of fun. We went grocery shopping, and she made us the best pancakes I've ever had... I ate so many I felt like barfing. We also played in the snow and on the new playground thing they have at her place. Kai had a great time... send me those pictures if you're reading this Lisa! =) I'm praying we both get out +'s tomorrow! My boobs are sore and bigger and I'm tired and crampy so hopefully thats a good sign... thought I had a very faint + today, but it's questionable. The waiting part is horrible. Kai says i'm gonna have twins lol... we'll see. Today was a lazy / laundry day... I've been exhausted, so it was nice to just catch up on relaxing and get things cleaned up around here a little. I'm pretty sure we will do the same tomorrow, although maybe we will venture out to the park or the mall playground if it's cold. More tomorrow...

Family and Stuff

Yesterday most of my day was spent cleaning so not much excitement. Kai seems to have calmed down a little after a few days of time outs. He's definitely still doing things just because he knows I want him to do the opposite, but I feel like I'm gaining control again haha...we'll see. I also went for my routine ob/gyn appt. I liked the doc a lot (Capital Women's Care in Clarksville), although she did stick her finger up my ass, which was slightly weird but much less uncomfortable than i had imagined. She said I should chart a few more months and if things are still crazy and I'm not gettin P (my term for pregnant) then she could give me clomid which apparently stimulates ovulation. Hopefully we'll just be lucky this month though and i won't have to worry about that =). I still haven't o'd though and it's cd23... uggh. The stress of 2 year old tantrums must be getting to me =p haha. In happier and less weird news, my parents are visiting. My mom brought kai a bunch of new clothes for the summer which was cool and of course a few presents (activity books and a the little mermaid movie). We watched part of the movie this morning which I think i enjoyed way more than kai and then we napped while my mom went to the wilmur eye clinic to get her freaky eye disease checked... turns out she has constricted blood vessels or something and the lack of blood flow is causing the retina to deteriorate. I guess there's no treatment at the moment but if she develops scar tissue there is a treatment for that... so for now it's just waiting. This afternoon my dad headed down to DC for his conference and my mom and kai and I ventured out to Bertucci's, Home Depot, and BJs. I'm sad to say my little christmas tree is not doing so well... it's all brown and droopy. I bought it a new pot today and some nice new dirt, so hopefully it will come back to life. Apparently i was drowning it too cause when i went to re-pot it, the little paper that was covering its old pot was full of water =\ oops! Poor little plant... please say a prayer for it! BJs was cool... i really like costco better, but bjs did carry a different selection of foods and things that i really like. They also had a ton more stuff for babies (food, pottys, formulas, diapers). Costco has a much smaller selection of baby stuff and carries no foods. Costco is a lot bigger, more organized, and cleaner looking. Not sure how the prices differed... i might have to look into that. I have the option of getting either membership so I'll have to think about it. This evening we just relaxed and Kai played with his trains. I'm pretty exhausted. I'll add my pictures later. 10pm... so early... but yet falling asleep. Later peeps!

Yesterday morning we went to the tot shabbat at Temple Isaiah. Kai had a lot of fun. There were two three year old boys that he ran around with. The woman played guitar and sang and read them a story. The kids were a little wild but it was still fun and the parents were friendly. After that they did a craft and ate cookies and juice. Kai chose a pink crown and decorated it with a bunch or circles and stars. We will probably go again next month... it's the 3rd saturday every month i think. We just hung out here in the evening. I finally got an opk strip that i decided to call + but it was my last one so I have no way of checking. Temp was up a little today but will need to see what happens tomorrow. My parents are visiting this week so we are looking forward to that. We are going to try to do some stuff around Baltimore / Columbia, which reminds me i need to check which imax is playing this friday!